Christopher – Failure realizes Self-Worth

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Failure is not new to me. I have failed umpteen times. Each time I fail, I learn something new about myself. I realize my Self-Worth.

This was not always the case. When I was younger, not all failures made sense. I had not yet learned that failure was an option for learning. Somewhere within me, the attitude to learn from it started taking shape with every passing failure. It was mostly due to my relationship with God.

I was 19 when I turned to the Bible for guidance. Since then, I have continuously been guided to persevere through every situation.

I recall a time when failure played a life-altering role. I was in a prominent position, heading a well-established project in a large organization with whom I had been employed for 2 decades. Suddenly, I was found to be wanting since I had erred in my work. I had failed. I was taken to task and was asked to account for my error.

My initial reaction was to be defensive, but things went south from there. To cut a long story short, I was asked to step down and leave the organization. I did.

It was a painful passage of time in my life. However, one of the highlights of that period was the way a friend of mine stepped in to guide me through it all. He enabled me to let that failure turn into a learning experience. Thanks to him, I came out stronger on the other side.

He made me realize all the things I still had. Through him, I understood that the pain of failure actually helped me to discover my self worth.

I particularly focused on a character from the Bible, Job, who is synonymous with painful life experiences. Yet, he remained an ambassador of patience and perseverance, choosing to stay faithful to God. I tried to be like Job. I continued believing in my purpose in life and made the amends I needed to.

In the end, I know I have scaled that summit. Now I look for other peaks to scale. In the bargain, I have forgiven people and have forged better relationships.

My personal conviction? I don’t fear failure.